I Hate

This post to express what I feel right now.
Random feeling about Congress Bill, Indonesian Badminton team in Asian Games, and also my result from Financial Ministry test. I know this is not the first time, I've been here several times. But, I think that today I have grown up and face the reality in this world with keeping my head held hight.

Firs coming into my mind is My result for Financial Ministry recruitment. I got the test on 25 September, and the result is so make me gloomy during this two days. I never imagine that one of the aspect for the test (Tes Wawasan Kebangsaan) that I usually proud of, but the fact that my score only in the edge of passing grade level. So what can i do then? This feeling when I'm feeling lost. Become the looser compare to other my close friend who became the winner (not as mention directly but, their grass is greener than mine). Obviously I'm so sad. So desperately wanted this position so much. Not to compare with another recruitments, but this is my first time to feel that I want this position so much, until I can feel my whole body is shaking and I'm almost cry whenever I said my little prayer that if i got this position it can make my parents proud of me even better not myself. So, what should I do then?

Then in the same day, this country also have another big moments with declaring the bill from congress. And again this is so SUCK! Why they only consider political problem for their sake of their life? Not even think about this whole nation. I'm so sick to know my beloved country devided into two groups that each one of them don't give a respect. We loosing so much energy to tackle our brother in one nation we never get the same vision to lead this nation for our better generation. It's too obvious that every single people in Indonesia so desperately don't trust the congress. But how can the one that we can't trust get so mmuch power to choose the governor or mayor? Come on, as one of the people of Indonesia I feel shame with their political manners.

I love badminton so much, and I'm always become number one fans(as same as another fans of Indonesia Badminton Teams). Our beloved teams now fighting in Asian Games Incheon Korea. Yes I do hope that every single player could do the best and got the gold medals. But again, as our people are educated by judging, mocking, and bullying others so easily so they will never appreciate every single swat that comes from our player. Why we always judging another so easily? despite knowing every single persons have their own struggle. Same with our player, I'm very sure that they fight for the pride of our nation. They give their one hundred even a thousands % of energy. They showing a lot of their spirit, capability and integrity. And we as the people who only can watch them from distant why we always not so supportive in term of sportmanship.

in the end I just wanna say that I hate my self who always complaining instead of prising.
I hate our congress the one that I never vote.
I hate all of the people who can easily judge every one instead of look at the mirror and think do you really perfect!

Tak Kemana Mana

Gak sengaja nemu lagu ini sekitar dua hari lalu di Soundcloud. Padahal setelah ditelusuri lagu ini sudah ada sekitar empat bulan lau per pertama di upload oleh Tangga. Daaaan, saya sangat suka lagunya. Bercerita akan perpisahan, duh pas banget. Apalagi bagi saya yang melow dan gampang tersentuh. Berasa sedih sekaligus tersenyum bahagia. Dengan segala pertemuan dan jalinan pertemanan, saya merasa sangat bersyukur bisa bertemu dengan banyak orang dan mampu berbagi kisah dan pengalaman.

Terkait dengan lagu ini sendiri, liriknya memang minimalis tapi sangat manis. Kemudian saya juga baru tahu kalau ternyata Tangga akan vakum (tidak berani bilang bubar). Yah, pada akhirnya sama mungkin dengan setiap band ataupun group vocal yang ada di Indonesia, mereka tidak bisa dikatakan dapat bertahan lama. Untuk Tangga sendiri sudah 9 tahun bersama, dan berbagai macam hitsnya selalu menjadi deretan karaoke saya.  Sedih bingits.

Kalau membaca dari tumblr Kamga dan juga pengakuan mereka di Sarah Sechan, sedikit bisa memahami posisi mereka. Mungkin mereka sudah pada tahapan jenuh untuk berkarya, maaf bukan dalam menghasilkan karyanya tapi lebih kepada menghadapi pansa pasar musik Indonesia yang sedang lesu. Toh juga pembubaran ataupun sistem tambal sulam personel sudah sering terjadi di belantika musik tanah air. Kemudian juga sedikit lebih paham bagaimana berkarir di dunia musik itu gak bisa seenak udelnya untuk mengeluarkan hits yang benar-benar ngehits. Karena ada pihak lain yang akan sangat memikirkan konsumen. Kalau ingin mandiri ya berarti indie.

Nah dari gambaran diatas, jadi merasa bahwa seharusnya juga dari diri sendiri harusnya lebih mengapresiasi karya musik anak bangsa. Harusnya gak beli bajakan demi mereka yang juga cari makan. Dinamikanya memang membawa alur pada penjualan digital, namun bermuara pada pembajakan.

Pada akhirnya semoga apapun keputusan TANGGA memang yang terbaik bagi masing-masing dari mereka. Semoga mereka lekas menyembuhkan luka sehingga bisa kembali berkarya. Dan untuk itu di bawah ini lirik lagu terakhir mereka yang selalu saya putar di daftar MP3 saya.

Tak Kemana Mana

By Tangga

Awal cerita yang selalu bahagia
Adalah skenario yang ditawarkan cinta
Namun hanya Tuhan yang tau Kemana
Perjalanan ini kan bermuara nantinya…

Kita sedang bahagia
Jangan buang waktu menerka nerka akhir nya
Tenang aku disini selama kau disisi
Aku bejanji tak ke mana mana

Mungkin saja esok mungkin saja lusa
Mungkin saja dunia sekejab jadi berbeda
Perasaan dan segenap cinta yang kau
Dan yang aku punya

Kan tetap sama . . .

Masa depan yang aku inginkan
Adalah membahagiakanmu
Mulai hari ini…

Bagai bulan dan bintang kita takkan terpisahkan
Kita trus bersama warna kita selalu terang itu jadi pegangan
Janganlah pikirkan masa depan yang jauh
Tujuan masih jauh nikmatilah saat ini
Toh bah kita bersatu kan kupegang tanganmu serta pelukkanku
Cerita nanti biar nanti syukuri ini dulu

Kita sedang bahagia
Jangan buang waktu menerka nerka akhir nya
Tenang aku disini , selama kau disisi
Aku bejanji mulai hari ini hingga tua nanti

Tak kemana mana
Tak kemana mana

Rumah Bahasa Surabaya

Yep! It's kinda little too late to write about Rumah Bahasa Surabaya. Pardon me, because it just personal reason. Well, let me begin this page to inform you about the background of Rumah Bahasa. Rumah Bahasa is the program from Surabaya City Government (lead by Mayor Tri Rismaharini) to face ASEAN Economic Community 2015. Here we provide self improvement in terms of language skills, computer, and also more knowledge about Labor, investment, trade and cooperation. Because next year we believe that more free flow labor, products, and service will come to Surabaya and other area in Indonesia and ASEAN countries. This is GREAT idea by Surabaya City Government to prepare the people to be ready and steady about next year condition. Plus, this program is totally FREE!

Rumah Bahasa held on 4th February 2014. After seven month from it opened we already have more than ten thousands participants. 250 volunteer and we have 8 different languages. As one of the staff of Surabaya City Government and also one of the person in charge at Rumah Bahasa, I feel blessed and fortunate because of everyday I meet new person, new friends, and also new problems (in term of bureaucracy). Well, I think that if we work in Government especially in Indonesia you will underestimate with what I called "Glembosi". And that was 100 % TRUE. But not for me, because I always manage my time to more useful and avoid that "glembosi". So I can mention that my Boss always said myself that I'm the manager of Rumah Bahasa. But for me, as new comer in this area of work I try to keep humble and don't want to mention this manager position. I prefer as "staff" in Rumah Bahasa. Though my duty in here is almost in all round area (looking for volunteer, participants, manage the operating stuffs). So I am always moving from one side to another side of job. But that problems make me so skillful and I fortunate that all problems finally finish.

Rumah Bahasa not only focus on language training or language mastering. But we also provide another information such as information about ASEAN, about trading and investments and also about cultural differences. Another positive side from Rumah Bahasa and we sholud proud with it is The Volunteer is not paid even only one sen. They dedicate their time to share about knowledge and also skill. We also have Teacher from native speaker. They usually foreign students who came in Indonesia to follow exchange program. We open from Monday till Sunday. Start from 9 am till 9 pm. So, if you really interest with this program and also want to give another contribution to elevate our knowledge I challenge you to joint this program. Let's share if you care.

Rumah Bahasa Address (Komplek Balai Pemuda, Jl Gubernur Suryo)
Find us on Facebook: Rumah Bahasa Surabaya