I Hate

This post to express what I feel right now.
Random feeling about Congress Bill, Indonesian Badminton team in Asian Games, and also my result from Financial Ministry test. I know this is not the first time, I've been here several times. But, I think that today I have grown up and face the reality in this world with keeping my head held hight.

Firs coming into my mind is My result for Financial Ministry recruitment. I got the test on 25 September, and the result is so make me gloomy during this two days. I never imagine that one of the aspect for the test (Tes Wawasan Kebangsaan) that I usually proud of, but the fact that my score only in the edge of passing grade level. So what can i do then? This feeling when I'm feeling lost. Become the looser compare to other my close friend who became the winner (not as mention directly but, their grass is greener than mine). Obviously I'm so sad. So desperately wanted this position so much. Not to compare with another recruitments, but this is my first time to feel that I want this position so much, until I can feel my whole body is shaking and I'm almost cry whenever I said my little prayer that if i got this position it can make my parents proud of me even better not myself. So, what should I do then?

Then in the same day, this country also have another big moments with declaring the bill from congress. And again this is so SUCK! Why they only consider political problem for their sake of their life? Not even think about this whole nation. I'm so sick to know my beloved country devided into two groups that each one of them don't give a respect. We loosing so much energy to tackle our brother in one nation we never get the same vision to lead this nation for our better generation. It's too obvious that every single people in Indonesia so desperately don't trust the congress. But how can the one that we can't trust get so mmuch power to choose the governor or mayor? Come on, as one of the people of Indonesia I feel shame with their political manners.

I love badminton so much, and I'm always become number one fans(as same as another fans of Indonesia Badminton Teams). Our beloved teams now fighting in Asian Games Incheon Korea. Yes I do hope that every single player could do the best and got the gold medals. But again, as our people are educated by judging, mocking, and bullying others so easily so they will never appreciate every single swat that comes from our player. Why we always judging another so easily? despite knowing every single persons have their own struggle. Same with our player, I'm very sure that they fight for the pride of our nation. They give their one hundred even a thousands % of energy. They showing a lot of their spirit, capability and integrity. And we as the people who only can watch them from distant why we always not so supportive in term of sportmanship.

in the end I just wanna say that I hate my self who always complaining instead of prising.
I hate our congress the one that I never vote.
I hate all of the people who can easily judge every one instead of look at the mirror and think do you really perfect!